[ it almost makes him laugh, when he thinks about it that way. He has no grand scheme; he doesn't believe that humanity needs to be punished for its sins. His motivations are entirely selfish. He hurts. He had to watch everyone around him pass on and leave their suffering behind while he could not. That alone made him hate them. ]
You think I need a reason like that? I wanted everyone to be as miserable as I am. Worth and morality have nothing to do with it. The only pleasure I had in my pathetic existence was seeing others fall into despair. It's only natural that my greatest wish would be to inflict as much of it as possible for my own satisfaction. [ a pause. ] ... That's the kind of selfish man I am.
[ there, he doesn't use past tense. that part of him hasn't changed, even if he remembers more now, and even if he's found happiness elsewhere - he doesn't think he'll ever be a "good person." ]
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[ it almost makes him laugh, when he thinks about it that way. He has no grand scheme; he doesn't believe that humanity needs to be punished for its sins. His motivations are entirely selfish. He hurts. He had to watch everyone around him pass on and leave their suffering behind while he could not. That alone made him hate them. ]
You think I need a reason like that? I wanted everyone to be as miserable as I am. Worth and morality have nothing to do with it. The only pleasure I had in my pathetic existence was seeing others fall into despair. It's only natural that my greatest wish would be to inflict as much of it as possible for my own satisfaction. [ a pause. ] ... That's the kind of selfish man I am.
[ there, he doesn't use past tense. that part of him hasn't changed, even if he remembers more now, and even if he's found happiness elsewhere - he doesn't think he'll ever be a "good person." ]